I have seen a ted talk on procrastination. It was great. That video kind of explained why I live the way I live. It was informative, imaginative and illustrative. But, did that video change anything in me? I do not think so. Even after 18 hours after watching that video, I am here writing this blog procrastinating. Actually I have planned to spend these hours in the evening to complete an advanced business intelligence assignment. I do not feel like doing it mainly because I do not feel like doing it. The reason is as ambiguous as the issue. And that ambiguity is the issue. But, while thinking about this issue of mine I have stumbled upon something great. Well ,not great but may be good. Hmm, may not even be good but reasonable. Keeping the qualification of the idea aside for the moment, let me get into the details.
I keep procrastinating and that should have been understood by now. I am an extremely good planner and at times feel that I should take up that planning as a profession because I am so good at it. Jokes apart, I have started planning in advance from my class X board exams and I still am doing it. Only to realize that I will be re-scheduling each plan with a probability of 0.998 or 998 times out of every 1000 times. But, during the last few days I have observed a pattern in my execution. I think I plan things based on my interest and I execute them based on my hatred in performing them. I am an unbelievable optimist while planning and an astonishing pessimist while executing. With my guilt building up, I do things that I hate less to escape the guilt of not doing things I hate more. Here, the word hate is used due to my dearth in vocabulary and not absolute hate towards that particular thing. This is only to say that I love doing somethings but do not actually do them until I have to do something that I may not like that much and hence in that case I do those things for which I did not have the will to do but wanted to do.
To instantiate, at this particular moment, my optimistic me wanted to do the advanced business intelligence assignment. My pessimistic me wants to watch a movie and then do the assignment when it is due or just before the deadline. There is a hidden optimism in the pessimistic side of my life. I know that I have accomplished many things doing just before the due date and hence I can pull through another such feat with a effort . However, this time I did not allow the pessimist to win, but still am not able to allow the optimist to win as well. But, I took the middle route and have come here to write a blog post. This I think is the change in me. I am doing the thing I wanted to from a long time but did not have the will till now. This could be wrong but adds less guilt to my giga bytes of guilt history. I hope this is the way things change for the good and I hope I will reach my optimistic self some time soon.
This was the ted talk that tried to change me but yeahh...That is how life izzzz.
https://www.ted.com/talks/tim_urban_inside_the_mind_of_a_master_procrastinator?language=en#t-353041
I keep procrastinating and that should have been understood by now. I am an extremely good planner and at times feel that I should take up that planning as a profession because I am so good at it. Jokes apart, I have started planning in advance from my class X board exams and I still am doing it. Only to realize that I will be re-scheduling each plan with a probability of 0.998 or 998 times out of every 1000 times. But, during the last few days I have observed a pattern in my execution. I think I plan things based on my interest and I execute them based on my hatred in performing them. I am an unbelievable optimist while planning and an astonishing pessimist while executing. With my guilt building up, I do things that I hate less to escape the guilt of not doing things I hate more. Here, the word hate is used due to my dearth in vocabulary and not absolute hate towards that particular thing. This is only to say that I love doing somethings but do not actually do them until I have to do something that I may not like that much and hence in that case I do those things for which I did not have the will to do but wanted to do.
To instantiate, at this particular moment, my optimistic me wanted to do the advanced business intelligence assignment. My pessimistic me wants to watch a movie and then do the assignment when it is due or just before the deadline. There is a hidden optimism in the pessimistic side of my life. I know that I have accomplished many things doing just before the due date and hence I can pull through another such feat with a effort . However, this time I did not allow the pessimist to win, but still am not able to allow the optimist to win as well. But, I took the middle route and have come here to write a blog post. This I think is the change in me. I am doing the thing I wanted to from a long time but did not have the will till now. This could be wrong but adds less guilt to my giga bytes of guilt history. I hope this is the way things change for the good and I hope I will reach my optimistic self some time soon.
This was the ted talk that tried to change me but yeahh...That is how life izzzz.
https://www.ted.com/talks/tim_urban_inside_the_mind_of_a_master_procrastinator?language=en#t-353041
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